Last Friday Night

Last Friday morning, January 11th 2013, a big number of us went to the DECTAR aka Tun Abdul Razak Chancellor Hall to attend the Royal Convocation : The Conferment of the Honorary Doctorate of Laws by the University of Glamorgan, Wales, United Kingdom, upon
D.Y.M.M Yang di-Pertuan Besar Negeri Sembilan Darul Khusus,
Tuanku Mukhriz Ibni Almarhum Tuanku Munawir
who is also the Chancellor of Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (UKM).
I know, I know, too much facts, and a very long name.

Here, this guy in the picture below, (I'm sorry, am I allowed to call him that? I don't know)

This person would be better I think. This person here, is the chancellor of our university
(and he is also a royal).
He came to our university last Friday.

Tuanku Mukhriz Ibni Almarhum Tuanku Munawir

Please understand,

I respect him.

I really do.

But if you expect me to attend an event which requires me to sit and listen,

FOR HOURS,

it just wont do.

I know, I volunteered, but yeah,

you understand, right?

Plus,

I slept late the night before.

So you must can imagine how I was when they gave their speeches.

Hehe.

BUT,

it was a relief that the two teachers patronizing us were sitting very near.

And by very near, I mean just next to me.

So, because of that, I managed to stay awake until the very end.

YEAY ME!!! XD

Lunch was great, and haha my schoolmate Rach was cute.

Kawaiiii~XD

BUT THAT EVENING WAS BAD.

Well, FYI,

my relationship with Hanafi wasn't very good.

and that evening,

hurting sooo much,

I sent him these,

text by text:

Are you that busy?

Like, really REALLY busy?

Or are you doing this just to get me angry?

Or is it because "Nahh, Al is not important, there's something/someone that's sooo much more important than her" thing?

Or are you annoyed with me?

Or am I boring?

I know this kind of attitude from me might be a bit too much for you to handle

But I tried tolerating.

I tried to be understanding

And I even tried to hold everything that I feel inside so that we wont fight,

So that I wont hurt you.

Just like how you did to me.

You know that feeling when you feel so much care for someone but it's not the same for him/her?

Yeah that's what I'm feeling right now.

Oh, and I'm also feeling so disappointed

So stupid

So sad

So worried

So weak

So confused

I sound pathetic right?

I'm sorry

And I'm also sorry for wasting your time reading this.

If you did.

Well, okay then. Bye :)

#read it from the start okay.

Still.

No replies.

No calls.

No tweets.

No nothing.

It hurts.

What should I do?

I don't know.

My brain tells me to wait.

My heart tells me to scream.

Which should I follow?

I personally think that both my heart and brain are fools.

Complete idiots.

I should stab them.

They're the ones who lead me into this trouble.

YAAAAAA!!!!!

Stupid!

Stop blaming those two!

Huhh,

chill Al,

breathe in,

breathe out.

In,

Out.

Relax.
Everything happens for a reason.
Right?
Well, duhh, of course!

Baby, I love you.
So much.
But if you keep on testing our relationship like this, I might break down.
I'm not as strong as I look.
Please, help me, and I'll help you.
I'll be more considerate before I even open my mouth.
You'd like that, won't you?
I wish we'll fix this real fast, okay babe?
I love you.
*wipe tears*
*smile*

I know you're reading this,
so,
Wish us luck okay, readers & stalkers?
:')

xoxo, Al ♥