H E A R T B R E A K .

Heartbreak.

Yes,

that's my title for today.

No,
It's not him.
It's not Hanafi.
It's...
The people that I used to know.

My Ex.
Well maybe not just one.
There's a whole bunch of them.

Think what you want,
but
I DO NOT TRY OUT EVERY GUY I MEET.
Is that clear?
Yes?
Thank you.

Back to the topic,
you do know how they can hurt you just by the sound of their names, right?
Yeah so imagine you have a lot of ex-boyfriends
walking around the same buildings that you're in
and you have to walk pass them
everyday
for two years.

In my case here,
they're not ex-boyfriends.
They're the people that I liked like.
You can say crushes.
We know we like each other.
And some of them even...
How do I say this.
You know that situation where you are NOT dating each other but you guys act like you are?
Yeah, that.

The problem comes when you "broke up"
As usual,
you're gonna be like,

"We're still gonna be friends" 

Then, you become strangers.
Ouch.

And that's where the song Somebody That I Used To Know fits in.

It's bad enough to have my ex-boyfriends lingering around on my timeline,
to have problem with my darling at times,
and now this?
And you have to act like you don't know each other at all?
It hurts man.
Especially when you have an assignment that you have to do with them.
Worse, if there's more than one of them in that group.
Most of you must know how it is.
You guys must understand me, right?

I don't know,
Just sitting near him breaks my heart.
Hurts my pride.
He's like..
I'm like..
We're like..
Y'know,
I had like THE biggest crush on him.
And suddenly he got mad at me for something he wouldn't tell me.
I just don't understand.
What did I do wrong?

If you noticed,
I've been using 'he' and 'him'
Yes, I am talking about one specific person now.

Maybe I did something to hurt him.
Maybe I was wrong.
But why wouldn't he tell me where I went wrong?

For some of you who knows who he is,
you can judge.
Judge as you may.
You can say he's not handsome,
he's not rich,
he's not that much of a genius,
bla bla bla.
Whatever.
Say anything you want.
But don't ever,
and I mean ever,
judge whether or not I should love him.
I'll kill you for that.
Or better yet,
I'll kill the one you love.
I mean it.

Nahh, I wouldn't kill.
I wouldn't even dare to kill.
But I can guarantee you'll be hurt
...somehow.

To my dear Hanafi,
don't worry,
I'm not cheating you.
You'd still be the one to choose.
Kbye.

xoxo, Al ♥